kalei noelani?

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This is my new blog.
I doubt anyone reads this anymore.
But if you do, I moved.

That's kind of it.

Trickster Online

So the first semester of college is over with, I barely made it out. My GPA was 2.1 which is bad, but not that bad.. I changed roommates and majors and I think things will be better. Lindsey is a friend of mine from FREE, so I moved in with her a bit before christmas. She's kinda a JesusFreak, but its not hard to get along with the girl. Also, if you are wondering, Aerospace is -very- hard. Unless you enjoy pulling all-nighters and building programs to build rockets, stay the hell away from that major. I found out that Aero is the second most stressful degree out there, next to being a doctor. My new major is Physics and I'm hoping to get a minor in Astronomy or maybe I'll change my mind and go into being teacher. I don't know, I'll figure it out when I get there. Calculas2 is EASY AS HELL, and I love my physics classes.

I hate the idea of me never updating, thats because this website is slowly dying and I am too. What I'm saying isn't anything new, so don't act surprised. It's just.. times are getting hard and I'm never doing anything that I actually want to do anymore. When I am happy, I'm out there being happy. Theres no boredom or quiet time here. There's always something going on.

I just joined this new website. You should talk to me on it. (:
http://www.formspring.me/KaleiNoelani

Also play with my on Trickster, this new MMO game I've been getting into.

Thats all the updates I have for you. Live long and die laughing.

You guys won’t believe how fucked up I am right now. It’s like I can’t even think straight because my mind is all over the place. So maybe I should start from the beginning, but it’s gonna take awhile because there is so much to say about what I’ve been doing these past few weeks. Sorry that I always seem to randomly come in and out of this whole blog thing, it’s hard to keep up-to-date on this sort of stuff. : 3

So college is alright. I’ve been very two-faced about the whole thing. One day I love it here, the next I want to kill myself because I can’t stand the thought of being alive anymore. I mean, I like the people and things, I just hate having to actually be a student and go to class and have exams. I wasn’t ready to go to school, y’know?

Exams kicked my ass all over the place. Every single class I am currently in right now decided to have their first exam around the same week, so I was back to back studying like mad. And that didn’t even help, because I failed each one of them like the shit. ): But y’know what? I don’t care, now I know what I did wrong, and I’ll actually take the whole study thing seriously. Reading my notes the night before isn’t gonna cut it here. Heh.

My roommate is sorta cool too. She is really funny sometime, pretty weird the next. Ray (that’s what I like to call her) is an Electrical Engineer, so she has Chem4Engr class with me along with EngrFreshmen events that we have to attend. So she seems pretty helpful when I totally forgot what I am suppose to be doing when it comes to that. Right now, she is watching me type this, and she is all “Woah, you type really fast, I wish I know how to do that.” Haha, she is so cute when she thinks that I’m so cool for no real good reason. I mean, I am a very slow typist compared to all my computer friends. I just never found the time to learn how to speed type, plus I am a bad speller, so every few sentences I have to stop and delete a bunch of shit, like just now I typed “shrimp” which wasn’t all that close to “shit”, argggg

Oh umm.. My friend Azilia lives on campus too, and I’m gonna tell you guys something that you have to promise not to tell anyone, okay? Okay, well she scored some buds from a friend, and I helped her burn TWO WHOLE BOWLS. And well, that was kinda my first time smoking, and I was fucked up beyond belief. I’ve always been really against smoking and drugs, but since I’ve been here, we do it every weekend, just to blow off stress and stuff. I feel really bad about it, because I have to lie to my boyfriend since he’s all straightedge and shit, but eh. A few of my friends know, and they think that it is so funny. But now, everyone thinks I’m this big stoner in college, and I hate having such a bad repution like that. I don’t know.

Speaking of my boyfriend, I miss him like crazy right now. I’ve been talking to him, and it sounds like he would really like me to come to KC to visit during Thanksgiving. I’m unsure what my parents would really like that, but whatever. My parents have been assfaces to me since I got here, so I don’t care anymore.

Grab On To Me Tightly As If I Knew The Way

I was a pretty cute kid man. (:

Anyways,
I've been helping my family move into their new house. Picking who gets what room was really hard, but then we ended up not being able to get my parent's bed up the tiny stairwell, so they have to be in the small downstairs bedroom. This pissed my brothers off because now my sister is upstairs across the way from them.. so yeah. One small girl in a bigass room. I hope all goes well for them. I'd hate to leave and them killing each other.

My moving in has been ehhhh. I think I have everything needed for college.
But silly me has forgotten to get pens and paper. Haha.

I've been thinking about stuff I will need to do/work on while I'm there. Heres my list.

1. Find friends.
Hope my roommate and I get along. And if we don't I hope to make some other friends. I need someone to be cool with. I have friends going to the same school as me, but the campus is big and I don't know if we'll all find each other.

2. Eat and stay fit.
I've been biking and stuff all summer, but can I keep up this good diet and continue working out? It'll take awhile to get use to not having someone around to wake me, to tell me to run to the store, or tell me to eat lunch.. Oh well.

3. STUDY STUDY STUDY!!
I need to try my best at this school. I got scholarship because I'm smart, now I have to prove that I really am smart and I can get through this college business. :3

4. Try my best to stay intouch with that 'ol boyfriend.
With class and a whole campus to explore, I doubt I'll be calling and IM'ing that guy every day. I want to try to at least say hi or something once a week, if not more. Our 2nd year is coming up on October 15th. :3 The reason we've been together so long is we keep in touch but enough not to annoy each other. After all this college stuff, we'll be together. But right now, this is just a long vacation. So heres to hoping for more years. (:

5. Make sure my family doesn't miss me.
I don't want to come home every weekend, but I don't want the people to forget about me. ): I don't know how we're all going to deal with me being away.

I don't really have anything else to say about that. And I feel lame because thats not really a list of things to do. More like a list of random stuff I'm worried about. But whatever. I'm bored. Time to go.

Her Diamonds on the Floor.

So, I got the newest Star Wars book. Fate of the Jedi: Outcast. I skip around in the Star Wars books, because theres A LOT of them. So the last one I read was Order 66, which I thought was really amazing. Commander Cody should have my babies. I don't know.. But this one is really out there. Its set about 40 years after A New Hope. So.. Luke is older, has a kid, so does Leia/Han Solo. Both kids are jedi knights.. The order of the jedi are really starting to fall apart, and Luke is in jail, and jedi everywhere are going crazy. This is just a good a book, I think everyone should really get into Star Wars.

Now, if you're like me, which I would hope everyone is, you're saying to yourself "Man, school is starting back up, isn't it?" And you know what? It is. Shitsucks. I'm starting college in two weeks. I have everything all packed (been packed since the day before my birthday, when my family became homeless and kinda crashed at my aunts). I talked to my roommate. SHES FROM INDIA. Kinda cool gal. I hope we get along better than what we have been these last few weeks through email and whathaveyou. I need to still go out and buy more stuff for our dorm room. I mean, I have bedsheets, notebooks, a small table, a clock, and a poser.. but thats sorta a lame ass room. We need chairs and more posers and another table, and.. idk maybe a tv. A fridge would be nice. Need food to snack on. Soda. I NEED TO GO SHOPPING. Heh, i don't know.. I'm excited about living on my own. But then I have the actually classes to go to, and that sucks..

Ummm.
Jesse and I are more open all of a sudden. We talked about our past sex lifes, or in his case, my past and his lack of past. I've dated a lot of people. He had one girlfriend before me, and they didn't kiss. So, that was awkward, but we got past that. We're both virgins, (yeah I call myself that) and we sorta think it's about time we start.. well.. doing it. Y'know.. I mean, we're both ready. We're in love. We have been with each other two years (alright. One year, Nine monthes, Three weeks, and Five days. But who's really counting?) and everyone else is doing it. Plus, he's nineteen and I'm eighteen. We're old enough, not only to watch porn, but make it. ONE PROBLEM. Oh yeah, the whole us going to different school in different states.. yeah.. but really now. I think we can do this. We'll see each other between now and New Years,  I don't know when.. We have our anniversy coming up, then there's winter break, and maybe I'll get bored and drive over there some weekend. Who knows? But it's going to happen, and then we're gonna be together, and then yeah. Whatever happens, happens. We think we're ready, but come the time we're both laying in the bed without our shirts, his hand slowly slids under my pants, we might say "nevermind." Who knows?

Or we can break up now that I'm going to a big state college with thousands of people.

Whatever happens, happens.